Washed Away

As memories flow through her heart like rain, she feels like she's drowning.

Drowning in a sea of darkness.

An empty place where no one sees the hurt. No one knows the pain.

Times moving one but she's left behind, caught up in the past.

Memories of warm arms, of comfort and love. Washed away. No longer hers...

Like Ice

Fire is used too often.
So like ice her hearts consumed.
Freezing bit by bit, taking over but not numbing the hurt.
All she feels is cold. A Bitter burn.
Ice is beautiful but she feels not, just wanting it to end.
Her heart she cant defend; for the one whom can melt it away, is the  freezing it...
Trapped in the painful beauty for how long, no one knows.
No one knows if she'll even come out of it okay. A future uncertain.
This is her plea to some one to melt the ice...

The Rescue

Beautifully broken is what she is, but I adore her.

I wait on the sidelines, my love a shadow following her on.

I watch as she stares into the horizon, her core innocence captured in the suns rays. I know she's thinking of him. Of how he did her wrong.

But don't you know I love you? Don't you know I care. I know if I kissed those sweet lips I would taste the pain, your weariness...but never fear my love, for it is my strong arms that offer healing, my chest to offer refuge...if only you would see, if only you would hear my hearts cry.

But you're beautifully broken by some one else, and for that you may never love me...

Firewall

Emotions. Mixing around and around in her head, forming lies that become so true.

Hurt beyond words, missing him beyond belief. Anger is the only way. For the fire inside builds her a wall. Tired of watching her spiral downwards, spiral into that place where hurt rules her world, agony grips her heart, her soul is barely breathing...

So angers the only way. Push everything out the way. The less they see the less can be hurt.

Broken Wings

My wings are broken... My breathing as jagged as my barely beating heart.

The silver blade wedged deeper than I thought it could ever reach...

The last things that play through my dimming brain are images. But not ones I'd ever want to see, for I'd rather your blade killed me than have to think of them, of their breaths mingling, their sheets tangling, her screams growing.

My heart speeds up, I gasp for air. Two pains at once I cannot bear.

But I shock the lot. I get up and walk. I walk to those new arms and let myself in. There I find peace. There I find comfort. Your dagger removed. Just the glint of it shining as it slams into you...

Alone

Lying in this bed alone. Without you.

Like an ocean without its salt.

Like a teddy without its head.

Head cushioning on your chest... legs intertwined in the most intimate of ways...feel your heart beat whisper your love...

Eyes meet in darkness, pupils glisten with thoughts. Wordless lips touch. Heartbeats begin their prayers; like a hummingbird to a rose, soft and gentle, cascades of desire flowing...

Morning. My head has returned. But still I lay alone...

Tell Me

Was it not she on your mind when you touched my hair, the silk of mine nothing compared to hers...tell me...

Don't be afraid dear one, was it her dainty paintless fingers you imagined threaded through yours but instead you got mine. Be a man, just do please tell me. And was it her skin you craved, lying next to me, her touch on your back, her sweet love. Tell me, tell me, tell me. And when I took that plunge and gave my heart to someone for the first time, was it not her giggly voice you wanted to hear in the darkness of night next to you. Around you. Tell me. Was it not HER your eyes craved to see in every way, HER your soul wanted to bind to, to promise death do us part. Tell me! Just tell me! Tell me...